Music = Mood.

Music is such a huge part of my life. I have tons of memories from different bands, and types of music i have listened to through out my life. It has shaped much of who i am. I have realized, though, as im sure many people have noticed, that music has the biggest impact on ones mood. I'll listen to sad music when im sad, happy music when im happy, hard music when im angry, ect. It works the opposite way too. I can be in a good mood and listen to a sad song and it will change my mood. Sometimes im in a very weird mood and i have to find the music for the mood im in. Usually its interpol that i listen to in my weird mood. As i type, im listening to Psapp, they seem to fit the mood perfectly.

I dont know why my mood is so influenced by music. Example: One day, near the end of a week, i was in a really weird mood, i couldnt figure out why, i was frustrated and upset. I had been listening to Pedro the Lion, and other similar bands basically the entire week. I put in some Zao and it completely changed my mood to perky and happy! It had a really big impact on me. Its almost like i need a musical balance during the week to keep me on level ground.

Another great impact is the spiritual value of the music. I try to listen to all, or mostly christian music that has great spiritual values and lyrics. Some people dont understand some of the music that has great spiritual value to me; such as Zao.

Most of the time, though, when i listen to music, i dont just "listen" to it. I like to experience music. I like to take it all in, lyrics, sound, feeling, everything. The band that has the most influence on the way i feel, is Sigur Rós. I dont like just putting them on and just having them play as background music. I need to listen to them either alone, or with someone that wants to experience them along with me. Its almost impossible to explain the way they make me feel. I guess looking at pictuers of Iceland would be a good way to sum it up!

I think there may be only one other person who really understands me when it comes to how much a music is apart of their lives. That person would be my older brother. The last time Cage and i were together, i hopped in the car with him, and for the first half hour or so, we didnt say a word, we shard music instead! That was our way of showing each other what our lives had been like, how things were going, and how things were changing. It was really amazing! I cant wait to hang out with him again, to share whats going on in our lives through music.