Big Change

A few weeks ago I talked to an old friend. He asked me to sum up what has been happening in life over the past few years since the last time I had seen him. My reply was "big change." It was the best response, and most accurate answer I could think of. Over the past several years, some huge changes have taken place. From a new nephew, to moving, to going back to school, to having a relationship end, to re-uniting with old friends in unpredictable ways. Going into detail about each of the changes is not an easy task. They are all so packed with information, reasons, excuses, emotion, struggles, and strengths; some positive and some negative, and some still in question.
Some how, through it all, my feet continue to propel me forward, most the time at a pace like that of a rock being withered down to nothing; so slowly that I question whether I am moving at all. It seems as though one day I'm making incredible progress, but the next day I find myself asking all the same questions I had the day before the last. In a song I recently heard written by a friend, she sang - "Lets take two steps forward in case we take one step back / so we'll still be farther than where we started at." That seems to be what happens to me. I just need to take it one day at a time and slowly continue to move forward, even if sometimes I step backward. I know the answers are out there, and I know there may be more than one right answer, its just a matter of choosing that answer and seeking it out to its fullest. Some times change can be a really good thing...